What is the most frustrating things in the world? For me it is working out really hard, eating health-balanced meals and having the scale stay the exact same!!! I am completely frustrated with how this past week went. I made I made the conscious choice to put more effort into my lifestyle change. I mean, I have been 1/2 ass working out all summer, but my diet has been anything but great and as a result I have stayed at the same weight all summer, despite training for a 1/2 marathon.
This week, even though I worked out 5 days and burnt a total of 3980 calories, while meticulously counting calories and weighting my food, I lost absolutely nothing! Really I was set up to lose at least 2 pounds, but the scale didn’t budge in the slightest. I can’t even articulate how frustrating it is. I am not going to let it stop me from keeping up with the changes though. I actually think a bit of the problem is I didn’t quite eat enough for how much I worked out… So this week instead of 1250-1350 calories I will be okay if I reach 1450-1500 calories. I a going to keep up with the high level of activity though because, quite honestly I loved it!
So here is my weekly fitness breakdown
I had my scheduled long run. 9 miles. It was actually a pretty bad run, I was slow, sluggish, but I finished and moved on from it.
I burnt 900+ calories 🙂 and I got my long run treat, Joe’s Italian Ice 🙂 Yummmmm!
I had a 6 mile hike with crazy hills and then kayaked for 2 hours with my friends. I bought a waterproof disposable camera so I’ll post pictures soon. We also watched the season finale of true blood–did you watch it? SOOOO Good huh?
I burnt about 1200 calories today 🙂
See that monster hill!?!?! It really kills going up it.
That hill is totally worth the view though!
4 mile training run. Again a little slow, but I chocked it up to so much activity.
Burn about 400 calories today!
REST DAY 🙂
2 mile tempo run and yoga with my friends 🙂 11 minute pace!
Burn about 350 calories today.
My new workout shirt! I love it :)… Even though I didn’t lose weight this week, I feel like I am toning up.
4 mile tempo run 11 minute per mile pace! I also did one hour of yoga at 24 hour fitness. Normally 24 hour fitness has a pretty moderate yoga class, I feel it the next day but I can keep up. We had a substitute this time and she kicked it up a notch! I really felt it the next day, but I loved it.
I burn about 600 calories today
REST DAY 🙂 I love me a rest day!
I played with Corgi a lot today.. so enjoy the images!
Saturday was long run day and this week it was 10 miles. I didn’t have a specific goal going into this run, other than to do better than last week. I was hopping that I could keep a 11 minute per mile pace for at least 3 miles (like I do on my lower mile runs) but for some reason I couldn’t. I am not too sure why I felt like I was going at a good pace but when I looked at my Garmin it would read 13:xx per mile pace. It was pretty discouraging. When I feel like I’m flying by I’m actually going slow and when I feel like I’m barely chugging along I am actually keeping a 11 minute pace going. I just hope I can pick up the pace for the Long Beach 1/2 marathon. I have a month to tune things up. The 10 miler was pretty fun and the sites were great. The waves were really choppy and pretty big so that was fun to watch. I ended up seeing two people who broke their boards and watched one really good surfer do some tricks–that helped pass the time! I ended up stopping twice to walk during the run once when I ate my Sports beans (so I wouldn’t choke) and once when I caught up with Greg (he ran a different 8 mile path) I walked with him for about 1/4 of a mile before ‘running’ again. My pace was about 13:35 per mile, which isn’t horrible–for me at least, but I would like it to be in the 12:xx per mile pace by next month. I don’t know how attainable my 2:36:xx 1/2 marathon time is now, but as long as I PR I will be happy. Next week I am doing an 11 mile trail in Newport Beach, I hope a new location will help with my time.
Okay… So I know this is kind of a boring post… but it’s more to keep myself accountable. I would link to my sparkpeople nutrition intake… but I don’t know how to link it 🙂
What is it about summer that makes me so lazy? I think it is the heat… and not having a job isn’t helping anything either. I miss having a job, it gives me routine, I like routine. I have been applying to full time jobs like crazy. It is funny… growing up they always tell you to go to college, get a degree and you will be set… What a lie that is… Honestly if I could do it over I think I would have went and got an AA in something marketable and gone back for my bachelor degree later. I actually have quite a marketable degree (Health science–think public health, community health, health education, ect) but the problem is all the jobs hiring want 3-5 years of experience. I am most likely going to have to go back for my masters if I was a decent job and time in the future.. Funny I say that… I found this on pinterest the other day… describes my situation perfectly..
Okay that was quite a tangent…
Sunday will mark the start of 1/2 marathon #4 training. I am going for 2:36:00 (that is 19 minutes off my current time). Why 36 you ask? Last year the Long Beach 1/2 marathon was my first 1/2 marathon ever… I didn’t train and my longest walk was 8 miles, I really just wanted to do a 1/2 marathon ( I would NEVER recommend this approach) but anyway, my time was 3:36. Now that I am training and can actually run decently I want to take an hour off my time… My actual goal was 60 pounds off my body and 60 minutes off my time, but I have been slacking on the weight loss… I lost all my gained vacation weight, but I have been ‘stuck’ at 187 pounds (23 pounds down)… Personally I think my body hates summer and refuses to lose weight… or………It might be the red velvet cupcakes with baileys cream cheese frosting or vanilla cupcakes with white chocolate frosting I have been making and accidentally sampling 😉
I was good today… I had a ‘get back into running, run” 60 minute run, with 30 second walk… I am doing this run until Sundays training starts since I haven’t ran in a while ( I have been staying inside with a workout dvd or going to the gym and swiming)
My day in pictures… short 30 minute run + workout video… Yogurt breakfast… Dinner… I made Shark!! (Check out Sprouts, they have it cheap and it was really good… not fishy at all, oh and it also cooks in 15 minutes–amazing!)
I also bought a pool for the puppies since it is starting to get hot…. They are not huge fans…. I had to picking them up and putting them in…. See the picture (yep Sheldon in hiding behind a trashcan…) That’s my boy…
After the pool I dried off Sheldon with a blow dryer (on cool of course) Sheldon actually loves it… Every time I blow dry my hair he walks right under me and lets the air blow on his face.
Oh, yes I know… cutest puppy ever!
Well that’s my boring tangent write for the day…
This weekend was challenging. Food was a huge temptation and I was worried that what I ate would further my rut and push me pack towards my starting weight; I ate anyways, and I ate, and ate. I gave into every temptation. I didn’t feel guilty, or did I? I really don’t know, all I know was that I ate. I ate food I don’t even let myself think about. I ate food I haven’t eaten in years. Now I feel guilty. Still, this weekend I didn’t care, all I cared about was the eating. I know how I got to my top weight and this weekend I put myself on the road back to that weight.
I ate cheeseburgers from In-N-Out (yes, burger(s); if it wasn’t enough to have a burger Saturday, I had one Sunday as well). I ate French fries, so covered in ketchup that they were red, not golden. I ate chips. I ate red velvet cake. I ate cookies. I drank starbucks. I ate Chick-fil-a, with extra sauce. I ate dip. I ate bread. I ate toast, with butter. I ate chicken strips. I ate frozen dinners. I drank diet soda, upon diet soda. I would have eaten more. I wanted to eat more.
As I look at that list, I’m disgusted. It makes me sick to see what I put in my body. But I broke. I had no willpower. I didn’t make better choice. I didn’t make choices at all, I just ate.
I could have continued today, but I didn’t, today I ran. I ran hard, I ran fast, I pushed myself, vowing to burn every calorie I let myself scarf down this weekend. I also didn’t eat, I punished myself, told the fat girl inside me that I ate enough calories this weekend and that I didn’t deserve a breakfast, or lunch, even if it was healthy. I am fat, I don’t deserve that food.
I know it isn’t healthy, but sometimes we break. Sometimes we are glutens for punishment. I know I will be better tomorrow, but today, today I can be broken. I can let that skinny voice in my head, the one that tells me not to eat, the one that makes me afraid of food, I can let her have today. Tomorrow I’ll regain control.
I feel like I am always spiraling from one extreme to the other. I give into the fat girl; I give into the skinny girl, when am I going to give into myself? I know it isn’t healthy, or good, but honestly how many of you can say you are perfect with your diet? How many can say they don’t fail once in a while.
This weekend I was broken. It’s okay to break.
The biggest thing is, I could have eaten horrible today. I could have said “what is one more bad day”. I could have taken the path back to my heaviest weight, but I didn’t. Today I ran. Today I will pick up the pieces and gain control.
I had a better post for today, but I felt compelled to share my defeat. I can be so guarded sometimes. I fear the judgment. I only want to share the good, but if I share the good, I need to share the bad. This weekend was the bad.
So this post is a total bummer. I did have fun this weekend though, I’ll post more about that later. For now I’ll leave you with a few photos :
Oh, why yes that is a 5D MK iii around my neck. & Yes, I do still have both my kidneys. 🙂
I’ll post more about my amazing new camera later.
I don’t know how many of you actually follow my running/weight journey, but if you do, you may have noticed as of late (like the past week and a half) that my updates have been sparse. My weight has been on a little roller coaster lately. I swear I’m still trying to lose weight, but life has picked up and my wagon is starting to go a bit slow!
I reached -20 two weeks ago, and then gained 4 back because I was ecstatic about the loss that I felt like I earned the extra calories! I also have not had the motivation to run lately so I’m not hiring the calories that I was. Since gaining the 4 pounds back, I have dropped 3 and am at a 19 pound loss.
Here is a picture of me on st Patrick’s day, this was about 18 pounds down.
I also got a new job –extremely stressful– and I’m trying to learn to eat health and workout around my new job. I just have to keep reminding myself, if I really want it I will do it! My goal now is 15 pounds by my Colorado trip( 7 weeks,yay!!!!)
Like I said I haven’t been running, which isn’t good since I have the OC 1/2 marathon in a little over a month. I know I will be able to finish, but I won’t PR if I don’t get my butt into gear.
Like I mentioned above, I got a new job, today was day 3 of actual on site work. I work at a middle school in an after school program. It’s pretty stressful because the kids are middle school and there is no shortage of attitude! I was hand-picked for this site which gives me a bit of confidence, but the attitudes are really bad and they stress me to the max. I am the type of person who demands respect, and when I have a 12-year-old calling me a slut or other various bad name, I get pretty offended. The main thing with these kids, is you can’t let it get to you or they will eat you alive. I just have to keep reminding myself, that its great experience for my future job. My boss told me that if I can work this site, then I can work anywhere, so I’m trucking along. The first week is the hardest because all of the kids are testing me, I have 4 boys who are taking that testing to the limit. Luckily next week is spring break and no program( thankfully) I feel like I already need this break.
Well I’m extremely tired– I swear a 4.5 hour shift with middle schoolers is like a normal 8 hour shift– so I shall be heading to bed. yawwwn night 🙂
For those of you who notice this post was actually posted in the morning, see how tired I was, I couldn’t even hit post! lol 🙂 We’ll I’m off to the gym. Going to run a few miles before Daisy and I swim.
P.S. I got two new logos for my photography business. I can’t decide what one I like best, help?
If you like my logos I got them from Swept Away Graphics, Michelle was awesome to work with! She was fast, provided quality work and was very accommodating with request. I would go to her again in a heart beat!
So the question for you… Which do you like better? I was thinking the circle for my fine art, the swirl for my portrait, ya or nay? Let me know your thoughts.
I’m not making any promises, but if you like my photography, check back tomorrow. There might be a surprise! 🙂 Mums the word for now!
I failed this week! I am supposed to run at least 3 times per week and I failed. I am telling myself it is okay since I had a 12 mile run on Sunday, but I know really it’s not. My times lately have discouraged me so much that I just needed a break. I did however have a ‘long’ run scheduled today with Daisy, so I had to get up and do that. I love running with Daisy, although she is a bit faster than me, because it makes me get up and go running! I guess that is what best friends are for, to kick your butt into shape! I also tend to run SOOO much better when I run with her, which is why I am so excited that she is doing 3 of my next 4 races with me! (hopefully I can talk her into some more).
We were planning to go to mile square, but I really dislike running there, so we headed to Huntington Beach and ran along the coast. We did an easy 5.5 miles and kept a decent pace (The pace was a hell of a lot better than normal). After jogging the first mile, we did ¼ mile intervals of walking and jogging. Intervals are seriously my best friend, I love them! Overall we were consistent with our times, which I am happy about. It was a much better pace than the past two weeks which gives me motivation for this coming week.
This week at my weekly weight-in I was also down 1 pound. I find this really exciting because I have not been using sparkpeople lately. I have been trying to eat healthy on my own and make the right choices and as my weight shows, it is working. While it is only one pound, I am happy with a slow one pound loss, because it means that it is not fluctuation, it is actual weight loss. My mini-goal right now is to lose 15 pounds before Greg and I take our Colorado trip in May. (Yay, were exploring the world-ish). Then my goal from there is to maintain my weight in Colorado and keep it off for my trip to Ohio the following week. (Yay, I get to see my brother for the first time since Jr. high!!!!). I think maintaining—or even losing—in Colorado is possible, because we will be doing a 5K at the Cheyenne zoo and most of the activities we have planned are active type things. I also plan to run while I am there, so we’ll see what happens with that.
After the run Greg and I had a few errands to run. Our point and shoot camera broke so we took it into Best Buy. Since I bought it when I worked there, I added on the warranty (The warranties are pretty cheap for employees). I am hoping that they are just going to replace it rather than fix it—Fingers crossed! I have my eye on the Canon SX230 HS. I really like that one and I think it will be the perfect camera for everyday use. In other camera news, the 5D mk iii was announced. If I could sell my 50D for more than 900ish I would probably buy it. I am taking donations though, so if you want to give me money towards the “Theresa wants this freakin’ awesome camera” Foundation, I won’t turn you away.
I mean look at today’s running data…
They are pretty much forcing me to buy the 5D!
Oh, and if you are actually interested in the run data:
So it’s St. Patrick ’s Day next weekend, have any plans? I don’t, despite being Irish; we don’t really celebrate the day. It’s a day when a bunch of people walk around and mock our accent, claim they are ‘100% Irish”, get drunk, and promote a stereotype about us. It’s more of an annoyance; I might go drink though 😉 Oh, and if you do go out all of that ‘traditional Irish food’ you are eating, it’s not really typical Irish food. Most likely it is a fake knock off, or we don’t even eat it at all.
Okay, I wrote this Sunday, but I guess it didn’t post.
Sunday Funday… ha I lured you in with an awesome title, and all your going to get is some boring jibber jabber 🙂 But you already opened the page, so at least stick with me…
What is it about the weekend that makes eating healthy about 10X 100X harder than eating healthy on a weekday? Today was not as massive of a fail as yesterday, but it wasn’t a huge success either. I ate about 1600 calories today when I was shooting for 1300. I had one too many trips to the peanut butter jar, and just one, or two, or three too many sweet treats. It is sad because I substitute a treat for a meal, when that isn’t the healthiest, but I just can’t help my sweet tooth!!! This week I am going to be on the lookout for popsicle makers and turn my passion tea into popsicles, so hopefully that will help with cravings. As I write this I’m drinking a cup of green tea to help start my week off right…
I did have one mini success today: I made a 330 calorie pasta dish! I mean when Greg and I cook pasta, we cook pasta. It is the one thing he could eat everyday for the rest of his life. Now normally I give him free rein in the kitchen, but since I’m trying to control my intake I helped out today and measured everything out. It was actually surprising to see how much pasta 2oz really is…. A lot more than I was expecting. We also had this amazing spinach chicken sausage from fresh and easy that is just 90 calories per link, and they are decent sized links. All in all it was a low-calorie pasta dish that was immensely satisfying!
Doesn’t that look good? Here is scoop:
2 oz of whole wheat pasta
1/4th a cup of Classic vodka Sauce
1 Spinach Chicken Sasage cut into small pieces
Cook, Mix, Eat, no guilt 🙂
In other news, today I am exactly one week from my half marathon! Ekk, I’m getting a bit nervous, but I think I am ready and if I go at training pace I am set to break my PR. After this half marathon I am going to start speed training, I want to get my pace down to 10:00 so that when I run my next 5k in April, I can have a 30 minute time (I’m factoring in race day adrenalin to help boost my speed). I’ll let you know how that training goes. I’m thinking my goal for next year is a 9 minute pace for a 5k. With weight loss it should be more than attainable. Now that I think about it, I should probably add run a 28 minute 5k to my 25-by-25 list.
Other than running, I had a great day with my pups, they are just too darn cute!!!! I also had a few friends over, we watched The Hangover 2, which although I saw it in the theater, I was a little to inebriated to remember much of it. It’s a great story, you should ask about it sometime!
Oh, on a side note, a lot of traffic ( and by a lot I mean about 5 people per day) have been searching “Sheldon Cooper weight gain” and getting my blog… now to me he looks the same as always… My Dr. Sheldon Cooper on the other hand now weighs in at a whopping 12 pounds!
Look how big my baby is getting!!!
Alright, I guess I have bored you enough for one post.
(So do you find it harder to keep track of calories on the weekend? Any tips or tricks you use? Let me know in the comments bellow!)
Okay to start this week I felt very defeated by my diet.
I honestly felt like it was my 20th week on weight watchers rather than my 2nd. 😦
I lost almost nothing this week despite sticking to the plan and working my butt off running!
I ran 19 miles this week, mixed in with 2 days of core exercises it resulted in a caloric deficit of roughly 2200.
While weight watchers deals mostly in points, I also keep track of my caloric intake. With fruits being free I decided to keep an eye on calories. I also meticulously weight my food, even fruit and veggies to ensure I’m actually consuming the calories I think I am consuming. I ended up consuming 7514, slightly below my daily 1200-1350 that I am shooting for.
In total I had a caloric deficit of 9714( roughly) or 2.6 pounds. OR…. so you would think… however, I only lost 1 lbs. I’m honestly in shock. I did the math, I figured things out and still I lost such a minimal amount. I know 1 pound isn’t nothing, but in comparison my last two times on ww my second week I lost around 3-4 pounds. 1 pound is for week 16/17. Also the way I ate/ exercised set me up for at least a 2 pound loss.
I watched every calorie that I consumed and I pushed myself with my workouts ( actually went for one 9 mile run and one 6 mile run) and still came out behind. I know I did lose a tad, however, it could just be fluctuation. What sucks the most is that by Wednesday I had actually lost 3 pounds from the previous week. The next day motivated by the loss I pushed myself and ran 9 miles and to compensate upped my calories to 1450. I ended up gaining 4 pounds. The next day I ran 6 miles and had 1300 calories and I stayed the same weight. I honestly have no clue how. I drank at least 75oz of water each day and I was not doing any heavy lifting, thus no real muscle build up. I really am at a loss as to why I had such a bad week in regards to weight loss.
My goals this week:
–> I am not going to weight myself at all, until next Sunday.
–> I want to run 20 miles
–> Have a better relationship with the points system ( I really need to relax about the weight loss. The meticulous weighting, counting, adding, calculating is not all that healthy)
Weekly Break Down:
Miles Ran: 19
Weekly Weight Loss: 1 pound
Total Weight Loss: 6.5 pounds
Also, on a completely unrelated note. My cousin lost a very, very close friend in the early hours Saturday morning. He was a great young man and had his whole life ahead of him. While I didn’t know him very well it is still so sad to see a life cut short. It’s surreal to hear the death of someone so young–he was only 18. If you could please keep his family and friends in your thoughts and prayers, that would be be amazing.
Today is my new installment of Theresa Bridget’s weekly weight-loss update ( do any of my really good design friends want to come up with a cute logo for this?)
After watching my weight climb over the summer, failing miserably at counting calories and realizing I wasn’t going to lose weight with running alone: I took the plunge and signed up for weight watchers again. It is almost like signing up for a different weight loss plan as it is completely different than the weight watchers of the past. Yes, you still count points not calories, but now most fruits and vegetables are now ‘free.’ The only problem I have come across is say I made a recipe that included vegetables, and added the food to the tracker as the recipe not just as individual items the points add up differently. So I am kind of lost in that regards. Other than that, it was relativly easy to stick with though and I didn’t–for the most part– feel deprived.
Overall the week went well. I felt like my life centered around ww and counting points though, which I hope I can ease off of soon. I quit my snacking cold turkey, which was an accomplishment for me. I also only had one day where I really craved fast food. I mean craved to the point nothing tasted or sounded good. I ended up only using 15 points that day, a little more than 1/2 of my daily points, which is a ‘no-no’, so there is improvement to be made there.
My goals for this week :
– Have a better relationship with the point system, meaning I use all of my points ( or close to all) each day. I have this fear that I will gain weight unless I cut back even further. So I have to trust my points and the ww system.
Time spent exercising: 265 minutes
Miles walked/ran: 17.5
Week Weight Loss: 5.5 lbs
Total Weight Loss: 5.5lbs
Thanks for stopping by check back next week to see my progress.
Any weight loss tips you would like to share? Any fellow ww people wanting to share advice on that topic? Share it bellow in the comments 🙂
So I missed blogging almost completely last week, and I really don’t want my blog to turn into a once weekly photo dump. Which is why I’m taking a few minutes between classes to write this, so it can post tomorrow. Today has been a pretty eventful day, I had two presentations. The first was for a health program design class, my group and I developed a program to combat eating disorders in college athletes ( yeah, surprisingly there is a need!) Anyway even though we didn’t practice it went off really, really well, I’m hopeful for our grade. ( I am so thankful this is done, it has been a real test of my patients) I just want to say, group projects suck, and groups suck even more.The second is in about two hours (7pm) and is on alcohol in the workplace ( another program design class, this one is centered on worksite health). Anyway that has pretty much been my week. Update: the worksite presentation did not go off so well, my part did at least, and the most important part is that it is over!
So if you follow along with my Sunday post you may have heard, I received an early Christmas/Birthday gift from my parents a new lens. Sadly as excited I am to have it, it has been sitting in its pretty little bag. Finals, presentations, and the madness of working retail during the holidays has kept me from my new baby. Don’t fret more pictures should come soon :).
Well I have to get back to work, thanks for stopping by!
Oh, and P.S. Have you heard the Bruno Mars song Just the way you are–Amazing!
Ok, I wrote this Tuesday… it’s Friday night–I have been horribly busy.
This week has turned out to be a stressful mess. The final group paper (on eating disorders) turned out to be a stressful head ache like pulling teeth! The only thing that is keeping me sane is the though of winter break and all the photography that is in store!
P.S. Tomorrow I have my first photoshoot in a while, can’t wait to share the photos with you!