What is it about summer that makes me so lazy? I think it is the heat… and not having a job isn’t helping anything either. I miss having a job, it gives me routine, I like routine. I have been applying to full time jobs like crazy. It is funny… growing up they always tell you to go to college, get a degree and you will be set… What a lie that is… Honestly if I could do it over I think I would have went and got an AA in something marketable and gone back for my bachelor degree later. I actually have quite a marketable degree (Health science–think public health, community health, health education, ect) but the problem is all the jobs hiring want 3-5 years of experience. I am most likely going to have to go back for my masters if I was a decent job and time in the future.. Funny I say that… I found this on pinterest the other day… describes my situation perfectly..
Okay that was quite a tangent…
Sunday will mark the start of 1/2 marathon #4 training. I am going for 2:36:00 (that is 19 minutes off my current time). Why 36 you ask? Last year the Long Beach 1/2 marathon was my first 1/2 marathon ever… I didn’t train and my longest walk was 8 miles, I really just wanted to do a 1/2 marathon ( I would NEVER recommend this approach) but anyway, my time was 3:36. Now that I am training and can actually run decently I want to take an hour off my time… My actual goal was 60 pounds off my body and 60 minutes off my time, but I have been slacking on the weight loss… I lost all my gained vacation weight, but I have been ‘stuck’ at 187 pounds (23 pounds down)… Personally I think my body hates summer and refuses to lose weight… or………It might be the red velvet cupcakes with baileys cream cheese frosting or vanilla cupcakes with white chocolate frosting I have been making and accidentally sampling 😉
I was good today… I had a ‘get back into running, run” 60 minute run, with 30 second walk… I am doing this run until Sundays training starts since I haven’t ran in a while ( I have been staying inside with a workout dvd or going to the gym and swiming)
My day in pictures… short 30 minute run + workout video… Yogurt breakfast… Dinner… I made Shark!! (Check out Sprouts, they have it cheap and it was really good… not fishy at all, oh and it also cooks in 15 minutes–amazing!)
I also bought a pool for the puppies since it is starting to get hot…. They are not huge fans…. I had to picking them up and putting them in…. See the picture (yep Sheldon in hiding behind a trashcan…) That’s my boy…
After the pool I dried off Sheldon with a blow dryer (on cool of course) Sheldon actually loves it… Every time I blow dry my hair he walks right under me and lets the air blow on his face.
Oh, yes I know… cutest puppy ever!
Well that’s my boring tangent write for the day…
For the past two weeks, my weight has been steady… No up, no down. Stuck. Neutral. I needed a kick start and my upcoming trip wasn’t good enough. I really didn’t know what was going to get me out of this slump, but yesterday I found it and I got the motivation I needed.
Yesterday when I was waiting for Greg to get home from school, I decided it was still light enough to go for a run. So I laced up my shoes, grabed my Garmin and ran. The run was awesome, I didn’t feel strained at all. I was running at a difficult, yet comfortable pace. The awesome part was when I looked at my Garmin at mile 1 and I was at 10:37 mile! I have not had a mile that fast since high school! It takes one minute off my normal mile time, I was on cloud nine! The best part was, for mile 2 I was able to keep the pace up. I really hope this means I am getting faster, I would love to start working towards a sub 30 minute 5k after Sundays 1/2 marathon. I think a lot of it was the fact I knew I was only going 2 miles. I wasn’t trying to pace for 5+ miles. It was so fun and freeing just to run!
Anyway, back on track. When I got home from my run, I realized I was wearing the same outfit as in my ‘before’ picture. Even though I have stayed steady, I decided to have Greg take a picture anyway. WOW! I was amazed at my results. It was amazing seeing just how far I have come in 4 months! Yes I have only lost 22 pounds, but personally I think it looks like more. The pictures were just what I needed to get back on track. This morning I had my oatmeal breakfast + Fruit (I have been skipping breakfast lately). It is amazing how much better it makes you feel!
I have so much to update you on…. Color run, upcoming trip, weight loss, photography, among other things. Even though I have a post for every one of these topics sitting in my ‘to be posted’ bin, they are half finish, I have found that about 1/2 through a post, I get bloggers-block.
I decided a good way to get over blogger-block was to post on something that was almost unblockable
Here I am prerun 🙂 See all happy.
I swear, I treated this like a race… but I was excited for my last long run :).
The run started off pretty slow. Not pace wise, but I swear during the first mile, I though my garmin was broke. I felt like it was at least 2.5 miles, but it was really only .6miles. After 3 miles though the run was going pretty well. I was feeling great until mile 6 when my knee started to hurt, but nothing big.
I had one major accomplishment during the run, I was able to run 6 miles straight with a pace under 13:00/mile. I have had a goal for a while to run 5 miles straight, and I finally did it! At mile 7 Daisy and I started to run intervals, which worked out pretty well. This run felt good, it made me feel confident for Sunday. I am really hopping for a sub 3:00:00 pace. If I copy this run, I will do it! 🙂
Check back, I’ll let you know how Sunday goes.
Me after the run 🙂 Not all tired. I really could have went another 2.1 miles 😉 (but I’ll save that for Sunday: OC 1/2 marathon)
This weekend was challenging. Food was a huge temptation and I was worried that what I ate would further my rut and push me pack towards my starting weight; I ate anyways, and I ate, and ate. I gave into every temptation. I didn’t feel guilty, or did I? I really don’t know, all I know was that I ate. I ate food I don’t even let myself think about. I ate food I haven’t eaten in years. Now I feel guilty. Still, this weekend I didn’t care, all I cared about was the eating. I know how I got to my top weight and this weekend I put myself on the road back to that weight.
I ate cheeseburgers from In-N-Out (yes, burger(s); if it wasn’t enough to have a burger Saturday, I had one Sunday as well). I ate French fries, so covered in ketchup that they were red, not golden. I ate chips. I ate red velvet cake. I ate cookies. I drank starbucks. I ate Chick-fil-a, with extra sauce. I ate dip. I ate bread. I ate toast, with butter. I ate chicken strips. I ate frozen dinners. I drank diet soda, upon diet soda. I would have eaten more. I wanted to eat more.
As I look at that list, I’m disgusted. It makes me sick to see what I put in my body. But I broke. I had no willpower. I didn’t make better choice. I didn’t make choices at all, I just ate.
I could have continued today, but I didn’t, today I ran. I ran hard, I ran fast, I pushed myself, vowing to burn every calorie I let myself scarf down this weekend. I also didn’t eat, I punished myself, told the fat girl inside me that I ate enough calories this weekend and that I didn’t deserve a breakfast, or lunch, even if it was healthy. I am fat, I don’t deserve that food.
I know it isn’t healthy, but sometimes we break. Sometimes we are glutens for punishment. I know I will be better tomorrow, but today, today I can be broken. I can let that skinny voice in my head, the one that tells me not to eat, the one that makes me afraid of food, I can let her have today. Tomorrow I’ll regain control.
I feel like I am always spiraling from one extreme to the other. I give into the fat girl; I give into the skinny girl, when am I going to give into myself? I know it isn’t healthy, or good, but honestly how many of you can say you are perfect with your diet? How many can say they don’t fail once in a while.
This weekend I was broken. It’s okay to break.
The biggest thing is, I could have eaten horrible today. I could have said “what is one more bad day”. I could have taken the path back to my heaviest weight, but I didn’t. Today I ran. Today I will pick up the pieces and gain control.
I had a better post for today, but I felt compelled to share my defeat. I can be so guarded sometimes. I fear the judgment. I only want to share the good, but if I share the good, I need to share the bad. This weekend was the bad.
So this post is a total bummer. I did have fun this weekend though, I’ll post more about that later. For now I’ll leave you with a few photos :
Oh, why yes that is a 5D MK iii around my neck. & Yes, I do still have both my kidneys. 🙂
I’ll post more about my amazing new camera later.
I don’t know how many of you actually follow my running/weight journey, but if you do, you may have noticed as of late (like the past week and a half) that my updates have been sparse. My weight has been on a little roller coaster lately. I swear I’m still trying to lose weight, but life has picked up and my wagon is starting to go a bit slow!
I reached -20 two weeks ago, and then gained 4 back because I was ecstatic about the loss that I felt like I earned the extra calories! I also have not had the motivation to run lately so I’m not hiring the calories that I was. Since gaining the 4 pounds back, I have dropped 3 and am at a 19 pound loss.
Here is a picture of me on st Patrick’s day, this was about 18 pounds down.
I also got a new job –extremely stressful– and I’m trying to learn to eat health and workout around my new job. I just have to keep reminding myself, if I really want it I will do it! My goal now is 15 pounds by my Colorado trip( 7 weeks,yay!!!!)
Like I said I haven’t been running, which isn’t good since I have the OC 1/2 marathon in a little over a month. I know I will be able to finish, but I won’t PR if I don’t get my butt into gear.
Like I mentioned above, I got a new job, today was day 3 of actual on site work. I work at a middle school in an after school program. It’s pretty stressful because the kids are middle school and there is no shortage of attitude! I was hand-picked for this site which gives me a bit of confidence, but the attitudes are really bad and they stress me to the max. I am the type of person who demands respect, and when I have a 12-year-old calling me a slut or other various bad name, I get pretty offended. The main thing with these kids, is you can’t let it get to you or they will eat you alive. I just have to keep reminding myself, that its great experience for my future job. My boss told me that if I can work this site, then I can work anywhere, so I’m trucking along. The first week is the hardest because all of the kids are testing me, I have 4 boys who are taking that testing to the limit. Luckily next week is spring break and no program( thankfully) I feel like I already need this break.
Well I’m extremely tired– I swear a 4.5 hour shift with middle schoolers is like a normal 8 hour shift– so I shall be heading to bed. yawwwn night 🙂
For those of you who notice this post was actually posted in the morning, see how tired I was, I couldn’t even hit post! lol 🙂 We’ll I’m off to the gym. Going to run a few miles before Daisy and I swim.
P.S. I got two new logos for my photography business. I can’t decide what one I like best, help?
If you like my logos I got them from Swept Away Graphics, Michelle was awesome to work with! She was fast, provided quality work and was very accommodating with request. I would go to her again in a heart beat!
So the question for you… Which do you like better? I was thinking the circle for my fine art, the swirl for my portrait, ya or nay? Let me know your thoughts.
I’m not making any promises, but if you like my photography, check back tomorrow. There might be a surprise! 🙂 Mums the word for now!
I failed this week! I am supposed to run at least 3 times per week and I failed. I am telling myself it is okay since I had a 12 mile run on Sunday, but I know really it’s not. My times lately have discouraged me so much that I just needed a break. I did however have a ‘long’ run scheduled today with Daisy, so I had to get up and do that. I love running with Daisy, although she is a bit faster than me, because it makes me get up and go running! I guess that is what best friends are for, to kick your butt into shape! I also tend to run SOOO much better when I run with her, which is why I am so excited that she is doing 3 of my next 4 races with me! (hopefully I can talk her into some more).
We were planning to go to mile square, but I really dislike running there, so we headed to Huntington Beach and ran along the coast. We did an easy 5.5 miles and kept a decent pace (The pace was a hell of a lot better than normal). After jogging the first mile, we did ¼ mile intervals of walking and jogging. Intervals are seriously my best friend, I love them! Overall we were consistent with our times, which I am happy about. It was a much better pace than the past two weeks which gives me motivation for this coming week.
This week at my weekly weight-in I was also down 1 pound. I find this really exciting because I have not been using sparkpeople lately. I have been trying to eat healthy on my own and make the right choices and as my weight shows, it is working. While it is only one pound, I am happy with a slow one pound loss, because it means that it is not fluctuation, it is actual weight loss. My mini-goal right now is to lose 15 pounds before Greg and I take our Colorado trip in May. (Yay, were exploring the world-ish). Then my goal from there is to maintain my weight in Colorado and keep it off for my trip to Ohio the following week. (Yay, I get to see my brother for the first time since Jr. high!!!!). I think maintaining—or even losing—in Colorado is possible, because we will be doing a 5K at the Cheyenne zoo and most of the activities we have planned are active type things. I also plan to run while I am there, so we’ll see what happens with that.
After the run Greg and I had a few errands to run. Our point and shoot camera broke so we took it into Best Buy. Since I bought it when I worked there, I added on the warranty (The warranties are pretty cheap for employees). I am hoping that they are just going to replace it rather than fix it—Fingers crossed! I have my eye on the Canon SX230 HS. I really like that one and I think it will be the perfect camera for everyday use. In other camera news, the 5D mk iii was announced. If I could sell my 50D for more than 900ish I would probably buy it. I am taking donations though, so if you want to give me money towards the “Theresa wants this freakin’ awesome camera” Foundation, I won’t turn you away.
I mean look at today’s running data…
They are pretty much forcing me to buy the 5D!
Oh, and if you are actually interested in the run data:
So it’s St. Patrick ’s Day next weekend, have any plans? I don’t, despite being Irish; we don’t really celebrate the day. It’s a day when a bunch of people walk around and mock our accent, claim they are ‘100% Irish”, get drunk, and promote a stereotype about us. It’s more of an annoyance; I might go drink though 😉 Oh, and if you do go out all of that ‘traditional Irish food’ you are eating, it’s not really typical Irish food. Most likely it is a fake knock off, or we don’t even eat it at all.
I am beginning to think that my improved pace I was seeing all week two-weeks ago was a fluke. I had another crappy run today. I started off strong at an 11 minute mile but then I had a 13, 14, 15 minute mile. I really don’t know what has gotten into me. I even ate before my run today! I think this week I am going to focus on interval runs because those tend to produce my fastest runs. My goal for the OC 1/2 marathon is to jog ( 12ish min/mile pace) the first 5 miles and then walk/jog 1/4 mile intervals. I hope in the 2 months I have left to train I can do this. I thought it was very possible two weeks ago, but now, I’m slightly doubting it I really want to break 3 hours.
This was just 1/2 of my run. My long run is from Huntington pier to Newport pier and back. Its 12 miles. I ended up waiting for Greg at the pier and we just walked back. Yeah it was that kind of run It was 11.45 miles and I did burn 1299 calories, wooohoo!
Here is an update of my weight loss progress. The left photo is last month and the right photo was taken tonight and 15 pounds down.
Yeah, I gained all my weight within a year. From April to August I gained 40 pounds & now.
I also have more good news on the weight loss front. Yesterday I was out of clean jeans so I decided to try on one of my ‘big’ small jeans. They are from my freshman year of college and haven’t fit in a while. So I was extatic when I tried them on yesterday and not only did they button, but there wasn’t anything hanging over!!! Can’t wait for the rest of my old jeans to fit 🙂
Well that is today.
See you later this week. Hopefully I will have better running times. I am thinking of adding yoga and swimming to change it up a bit.
I really didn’t feel like doing anything other than laying in bed all day. I woke up at 6:30 to let the puppies out and then tried to get them to sleep for another hour… they were not having it! I did manage to drift in and our of sleep for about another hour and then I laid in bed procrastinating my run and playing with my iphone. I was almost 100% I was going to skip my run today, I was kind of sore and very tired… But I came to my senses and realized that if I skip today, then my next run will be that much easier to skip, and today was only 3 miles, I can do 3 miles!
I got my butt up, got dressed, got my Garmin set and started to run. At about 1/4 of a mile I was good, nice pace wasn’t to sore or tired, then 3/4 of a mile came and I was hating life. I finished a mile in 11:41 about a minute slower than my normal one mile time. I then preceded to walk almost the whole 2nd mile… I made up for it with a jog at mile 3 and finished 3.3 miles in 43 minutes. Really crappy!!!! It is so much better than not running at all, but still I’m really annoyed with the time. I could have pushed myself harder.I also didn’t eat before the run, so maybe that has something to do with the time. I did have a yummy double fiber muffin with peanut-butter spread and a banana after the run though 🙂 I love peanut-butter in the morning!
Now that I have my run out of the way, I kind of feel like going back to bed. I’m more sore now than I was this morning. I only have pain on my right leg, which is weird, I don’t know if I pushed myself to hard this weekend (with the hill runs) or if I just need to stretch more. I’m also working on uploading pictures right now but my upload speed (according to speedtest.net) is .09 MB/s when each picture is about 6.5-7.5 MB and I have roughly 100 more pictures to upload. You can do the math… it’s going to be a long day at the computer. At least there is some homework that I have been neglecting. One tip, I do not recommend going back to school and taking 5 online classes the semester after you graduate.
Is it lunch time yet? Running–even painfully slow–makes me super hungry!
These past two weeks have been kind of a bummer for me. My weight has only dropped a pound the past two weeks-Im not going to lie is frackin’ pisses me off. I know it’s my fault, I haven’t been tracking my food as good as normal and I know I have been taking a few bites from Greg’s plates lately. I have been doing good with exercise– I have run or gone to the gym at least 3 times per week and have burnt 2000+ calories each week. Now if I could be as good with my diet everything would be golden! That’s my mini goal this week. I plan to make all my meals, eat 1300-1400 calories per day, eat balanced meals and snacks, and count every calories.
On to today, today me and my Sunday crew went on a hike at Irvine park. While it was fun, I was disappointed in my time. I wasn’t banking on it being a high calorie burn workout, since we were just planing to exercise together nothing big, but it is disappointing only going 4.75 miles in 1:40 when I did 7.3 miles in 1:39 earlier this week. I just kept thinking of the calories I could be burning! However it was all worthwhile since I got to spend a day with my best friends 🙂
This photo my friends was taken with an Iphone
This my friends was taken with a droid
The lesson= Iphone pwns.
After our hike and going home to change and clean up we headed to Chipotle for dinner (See, I told you my diet has been sucking!). Then we went home and watched the Oscars, I’m actually really made about the results, I mean Harry Potter should have won something! I think I had more fun playing with the puppies than actually watching the Oscars, I mean what is cuter than a corgi?
Here is said corgi, he looks like he is playing Airplane 🙂 Ah, I love him to pieces!!!
Oh, my amazing boyfriend also picked me up a little piece of jewelry… Nope not a ring, a Garmin 305! I love using it when I run it is amazing!!! I can’t wait to keep playing with it. I plan to run intervals tomorrow using the pace thingy on it. It beeps if I go to fast or too slow, GREAT FOR TRAINING. I tend to start off too fast and burn out, but hopefully I’ll do better with this! I was previously using Nike + and while it was okay, it was not the most accurate, it also doesn’t have the pace features that the Garmin has and the calorie could was WAY off. I guess that is all for me.
Remember to check out my photography website Theresabridgetphotography.com 🙂
Okay, I wrote this Sunday, but I guess it didn’t post.
Sunday Funday… ha I lured you in with an awesome title, and all your going to get is some boring jibber jabber 🙂 But you already opened the page, so at least stick with me…
What is it about the weekend that makes eating healthy about 10X 100X harder than eating healthy on a weekday? Today was not as massive of a fail as yesterday, but it wasn’t a huge success either. I ate about 1600 calories today when I was shooting for 1300. I had one too many trips to the peanut butter jar, and just one, or two, or three too many sweet treats. It is sad because I substitute a treat for a meal, when that isn’t the healthiest, but I just can’t help my sweet tooth!!! This week I am going to be on the lookout for popsicle makers and turn my passion tea into popsicles, so hopefully that will help with cravings. As I write this I’m drinking a cup of green tea to help start my week off right…
I did have one mini success today: I made a 330 calorie pasta dish! I mean when Greg and I cook pasta, we cook pasta. It is the one thing he could eat everyday for the rest of his life. Now normally I give him free rein in the kitchen, but since I’m trying to control my intake I helped out today and measured everything out. It was actually surprising to see how much pasta 2oz really is…. A lot more than I was expecting. We also had this amazing spinach chicken sausage from fresh and easy that is just 90 calories per link, and they are decent sized links. All in all it was a low-calorie pasta dish that was immensely satisfying!
Doesn’t that look good? Here is scoop:
2 oz of whole wheat pasta
1/4th a cup of Classic vodka Sauce
1 Spinach Chicken Sasage cut into small pieces
Cook, Mix, Eat, no guilt 🙂
In other news, today I am exactly one week from my half marathon! Ekk, I’m getting a bit nervous, but I think I am ready and if I go at training pace I am set to break my PR. After this half marathon I am going to start speed training, I want to get my pace down to 10:00 so that when I run my next 5k in April, I can have a 30 minute time (I’m factoring in race day adrenalin to help boost my speed). I’ll let you know how that training goes. I’m thinking my goal for next year is a 9 minute pace for a 5k. With weight loss it should be more than attainable. Now that I think about it, I should probably add run a 28 minute 5k to my 25-by-25 list.
Other than running, I had a great day with my pups, they are just too darn cute!!!! I also had a few friends over, we watched The Hangover 2, which although I saw it in the theater, I was a little to inebriated to remember much of it. It’s a great story, you should ask about it sometime!
Oh, on a side note, a lot of traffic ( and by a lot I mean about 5 people per day) have been searching “Sheldon Cooper weight gain” and getting my blog… now to me he looks the same as always… My Dr. Sheldon Cooper on the other hand now weighs in at a whopping 12 pounds!
Look how big my baby is getting!!!
Alright, I guess I have bored you enough for one post.
(So do you find it harder to keep track of calories on the weekend? Any tips or tricks you use? Let me know in the comments bellow!)